The past few weeks have gone by in a whirl of activity, interspersed with days of fatigue that had me flat out on the couch – again. The energy shifts continue to happen and affect everyone differently, and I know I’m not alone.
It feels like time is going by so fast and it’s hard to finish everything that I want to do in a day. So often I’ll notice that it’s lunch time and it feels like I’ve just started the day. And then at other times, time seems to go so slow. Very strange.
I’ve been getting out more than in the past since I decided to come out of hiding, but have discovered that I am so much more sensitive to energy that I ever was. I’ve been learning ways to keep myself from getting swamped by other people’s energy but don’t quite have this under control. It’s gotten that I can’t go into certain places or be with certain people without feeling really drained.
And, I had a reading done with a intuitive named Marilyn Rossner. She had come to the city near my home and did an evening session which included mini readings for the audience and I booked a private session with her. The information that she passed along really rocked my world and got me looking at my future work from a bit different perspective.
Shortly after that, I did a channeling session for myself and a friend and Lady of the Sun gave us both some information to consider about our future work. Again, this gave me information about work that was beyond what I had thought I could be doing.
This all left me feeling confused and unsettled. I had developed a pretty clear plan for my work and was being asked to go in a bit different direction. Still doing similar work, but much more focused on healing, especially emotional healing.
After all the years I spent working in mental health and my challenges with being burned out doing this work, it was the last thing that I wanted to be doing in the future. But, I’ve been asked to reconsider doing this work to help people overcome the blocks that get in the way of success, which most often is related to an emotional wound.
I’m still being a bit resistant to this change of plans, but I am slowly warming up to the idea and the universe keeps sending me people who I’ve been able to support in this way.
Walking on the 4th path, that is following my inner guidance each step of the way is really a challenge for me at times, and this is one of those times. I like to have clear plans and then follow those plans, but it doesn’t always work like this when following the guidance that my higher self & spirit friends give me. I don’t always want to change my plans.
But I need to learn to trust fully and accept that beings in spirit can see everything from a different perspective and can glimpse into the future potentials and then guide me in the direction of the highest good. I’m not quiet there yet, but they are so loving and patient. I know they will just continue to guide me gently and support me through the temper tantrums, the resistance and the fears that keep coming up.
Following spiritual guidance is not the easiest road to walk down. It is so different than how I have always done things and it means having trust. But there is something magical when I get fully into this flow, where things keep falling into place perfectly when I get out of the way and let go of my preference to be in control.
It is an amazing journey. Wonder what comes next?