Seems to hit me every year around this time, the slow slip back into a place of depression. Even though we always keep Christmas a low key event, I can still find it a bit too much and the accumulated stress can send me into the pit really quickly.
This year I managed to make it worse by going away for a few days to visit my in-laws. I just seem so sensitive to everything right now that a normally enjoyable time ended up being an overwhelming time of non-stop over stimulation. Just felt like so much happening and no way to escape from it.
I came home exhausted, just wanting to crawl into bed and stay there which is basically what I have been doing since the end of December. I could not do much else.
I was really losing it and started to get really concerned that I was getting sick again which is not uncommon for me in the winter. Felt like the old monster depression was swallowing me up again.
Then today, things started to lift. It started with me sending a desperate email to a friend to have her check in with her guides and let me know if this was illness or energy shifts that had me down and out. I titled the email – “Help Please”
And then within the hour, things started to lighten up for me. I got out of bed, had a shower, did a bit of work and started to feel so much better. I guess my guides and angels heard my cry and sent love and light my way.
As part of my quest this week to understand my experiences, I was guided to this web page
It sounded so much like what I’ve experienced the past few months. Perhaps this is part of what I’m experiencing on top of all of the weird chemical things my brain does during the winter months. This time has been intense for me and I’ve heard from others that they too are having all of their unhealed “stuff” come up lately.
The good news is that starting tomorrow, Jan 4th, the energy is going to shift in a big way and make things so much easier. I’m really looking forward to what tomorrow brings. I am ready to get out of the pit and enjoy some sunshine.
I will be posting channeled messages again as soon as I get my clear connection back. I’m behind on sending out mini messages and the Lady would like me to pass along a message for the new year. As soon as I can, I’ll get this posted.
If you are having a challenging time with the energy transitions, holiday burn out or any health challenges, just hang in there. I’ve been promised that 2011 is a year for major changes.