I was offered a contract job to develop a workshop for folks on welfare to get them prepared to take a training program that will make it easier for them to find work. It took me most of January to prepare and deliver the workshop. Out of the 24 people who started the week long workshop, only one did not complete it because her son was hospitalized. This has never happened in the history of the welfare department here where the drop out rate is at least 50% It was a lot of fun, very challenging, overwhelming and a very good learning experience. It just took a LOT of time and energy.
Before I started to work on this project and when that was done, I’ve been in a very strange place that has been kind of scary and very mysterious to me. Strange pains, falling asleep unexpectedly in the daytime, flu like symptoms without being sick and emotional states that I do not have names for. It’s been kind of creepy.
With the help of my dear friend and amazing energy worker Kat, we’ve been piecing together what is going on. And Lauren Gorgon’s post today summed it up quite nicely. I’m changing and getting ready for a shift into the 5th dimension. That’s all, just going through an amazing transformation from a caterpillar to a butterfly.
As Kat was doing some energy work with me earlier in the week (after I called her in a panic because I felt so strange) she tuned in and saw angels working on me and light around me in a way she had never seen before. Later, Lady of the Sun confirmed that my lightbody was being activated.
I still don’t have words to describe the feelings in my body and the emotions that I’m experiencing. Lauren summed it up quite well and between Kat and Lauren, I’ve let go of the panic and am relaxing into the process. Still creepy…
I’m behind on sending out mini messages for people who signed up for the newsletter and have not been guided to post messages. It’s like I’ve been in a void and there is nothing to say. I’ve had to put my business plans on hold for now and have no idea what will be happening after today.
It feels like I have jumped off a cliff into the unknown, with no idea where I will land. I know this is a lesson in trust and have been told that I will only be given one piece of information at a time to guide me into the future.
Being a person who likes to plan, this has been a big challenge. I’m being asked to let go of planning, and surrender to divine guidance. Scary stuff. I’m being asked to just “be” for now, and not try to “do” anything until I am comfortable “being” This is just plain creepy. It does not feel comfortable at all and is pushing me into trusting my inner guidance and the spirit beings who are working with me.
So right now, I don’t know what I will be doing with my work, with the blog, with my life. I’m just being asked to let go of everything and trust. I’m hoping this gets easier in time, because today, it is not at all easy.
I get comfort in knowing that I am not alone in this dramatic life change that is happening. Many messages that others are posting talk about similar transformation in others. I’m grateful to have a spirit sister who is walking this journey beside me that I can call on when I start to panic. For this, I am ever so grateful.
Today, I have few plans for future work. There is a potential job that I’ve been asked to consider and I will be at Purple Door books in Kingston on Feb 12th and Mar 29th to do readings and hand analysis. The Channeling Circle will happen on the 4th Tuesday of the month and I’m still trying to figure out a better way to do a live online monthly channeled message.
When I am asked, I will be posting messages. And if you are waiting for a mini message, I’ve been told that they will be done, I just don’t know when. It seems that this is on hold once again while I go through this energy shift.
I’m hoping that others are finding this time of transformation easier to deal with. It seems that some of us have a lot more work to do than others and this is playing out in our emotional and physical bodies.
But hang in there, I KNOW that we will all make it through this time and that we will be amazed and grateful with our new lives. The only unknown is HOW LONG IS THIS GOING TO TAKE?